I feel as though every time I try to get ahead I end up failing.

I fully knew this day would come.

After they were so kind to reschedule me at an inconvenient time for them my car breaks down after I put gas in it. My first pay check and over 30 bucks goes to just gas. I almost had to call a tow truck and a tow would have been my entire pay check. I may lose this second job.

I just really feel like a failure, because none of this is actually about my car breaking down. Perhaps I have been ignoring something deep down inside me. Almost ever since I found out I didn't make it into the MFA program. I have stayed consistently small sad.