It's just super ironic (?) that this is the song of my nights here in Blue Lake. And in the least depressing way, this may be why I am hesitant towards relationships. I sometimes also feel really super lame when lyrics describe some part of my life, but that's really why I ever really got into writing poetry in the first place. So I should stop looking down on that as a bad thing.

On another note, tonight's walk home was the best. Maybe better than steam. Maybe better than walking backwards at Lake Arlington. Maybe even better than standing on top of Lake Michigan.If you can belt "I got dreams to remmmemmmmburrrrrrrr" at the to of your lungs without shedding a tear well then, good for you. A sleepy little town called Blue Lake reminded me that I do have dreams to remember. And sometimes it's artsy to deny yourself love. Or what you think you need to deny in order to be successful. I'm only 22. None of this should really matter.

I climbed a fucking waterfall yesterday. I can't wait to show Dan, Adam and Jon.




Sometimes my heart pushes my ribs and I imagine what it would be like if I didn't take this place ticket home. You're a mighty citizen of the world.

-slm 

Mighty Citizens of the World

Sometimes my heart pushes my ribs.
Sometimes I want to skip clown school
and take your suggestion of "just driving-
north."
Sometimes I just want to go to Moonstone
Beach with you again and honor the
crab or sand-dollar or whatever it was
that Alyssa killed.
How I want to speak to the waves
Hear the puckering bubbling of all
the air sockets of shells blended
into the black rock.
I want to tell you about the V
shaped scar below my bottom lip and
the scars between my legs.
How fingers fumble through denim
mouths and fish blood.
How I reference skin and
helix curls.
How sometimes I just need to
write down my thoughts and
pretend it's poetry.

-slm

Because it was asked of me.

1. Tina Mata
2. Andrea Levey
3. Daniel Malsom
4. Ashley Bossard
5. Jessica Kyle Link
6. Jon Tracey
7. Adam Barnett
8. Julianna Magana
9. Georgia Hionis
10.

I don't even think this is "right." Somehow I thought that by doing this I would feel or be better. I just kind of feel bad. Maybe even an asshole. But this is me. I just have so many people in different facets that are so important to me in some way. Important now? Or important then? I want to put Alex, Mike, Sean, Bety, Bryan, Zack all up there, but in different ways. In different times. Maybe not even as number ten's. Even with these nine people I don't nearly make enough effort or time to stay in contact. I just feel like a more terrible friend. Nostalgia for the present. But I can be o.k. with fully believing that these nine people are instrumental in the shaping of my life then and now.

-Sonja